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in spite of liking pasolini’s medea, canby says he always found callas’s stage acting at the met to be “a bit broad.“ which goes to show there is always a line. a jester at my court who said such a thing would be executed immediately

I have hate in my heart for many things & I like to think I articulate it reasonably well. certainly I articulate it reasonably often. but the air of studied casualness is one affectation I never mastered

my favorite mean remark about a film w/ a classical subject is what vincent canby says about cacoyannis’s Trojan Women, in passing, in his review of something else I never saw it so I can’t say if he is correct except insofar as it is correct to be the world’s biggest bitch when the fancy takes you

the only authoritative expert on odysseus’s rotten character is still me. this is overwrought & overwritten bc whenever I get angry as a little rumplestiltzkin hopping about & tearing his beard, it shows. well I was a mere child when I wrote this & can’t be responsible for its bad style

no offense to the classics professors I did have. but if you are one of them, I think you cannot not help but ask yourself, looking at the intellectual state of me 20 yrs ago & still more at the state of me now: could I have done more, to prevent this catastrophe probably. but don’t worry about it

I think today what I thought nearly ten yrs ago, that the wilson translation is ham-handed & tin-eared & about the best that can be said of it is that it wipes the floor with rbts. fagles & fitzgerald. not that it wouldn’t have done me worlds of good to have had her as prof for certain greek classes

but she never really got into it as it reminded her too much of herself. “we are twins” she says. it’s in the eyes she says

first she gave it the eye from across the carpet but it was too afraid to make the first move so she grew bolder & tried biting it, making love to it, things of that nature

what the look said was, This is not a fish, you forgot to take the tags off, do you take me for a fool no theodora I take you for a keeper of that poetic faith which is constituted by the willing suspension of disbelief for the moment, coleridge says oh all right she says. let’s see

got for the cat the animatronic fish thing that flops around in death throes when touched. she likes many horrible things, why not this, I thought. mainly I was curious to see would she make a mortal enemy of it or fall in love but first she gave me a speaking look, or a gimlet eye, don’t know which

you have to say Thank you mr. death it’s just what I wanted. maybe you don’t also send a thank-you note but you lie & tell your mother you did well, a little gratitude never hurt anybody here I go again trying to be a credit to them that raised me: thank you mr death it’s just what I wanted

death is just like the kind of older relative who always reads your entire wedding registry or childhood christmas wish list specifically to ensure they get you something that isn’t on it, feeling very good about bringing a little old-fashioned originality to these materialistic times

anyway it’s crazy the landlord went after him for creating an alleged “fire hazard” & not for straining the structural integrity of the floors.

his apartment looks neater in the photos than mine. I will choose to believe it didn’t always he does do one thing he should be shamed for which is keep all those awful sticky labels on the spines of the used books he bought from from sellers who do that. you can get those fuckers off, you know

read the article from a couple days ago abt the nyc “book hoarder” with my defensive spectacles on but it turned out I did not need them since his “studio“ is about the size of my 1bd, suggesting better layout, & therefore I do not need to justify owning somewhat fewer books. not that I am counting

don’t quite understand the upset I mean of course nicholson baker is bad for anybody’s erotic development, especially adults. but if you‘d rather your kid surreptitiously unfold one page at a time of like anais nin or whatever, you can commission that on etsy easy. I haven’t even looked but I’m sure

more importantly, I don’t call her a better actor generally but if I were to cast one of them to play my beautiful cat theodora it would be madeiros every day of the week & twice on sundays. huppert too has got the pointy chin, the sensitivity, the weary eyes. but almost perfect isn’t perfect enough

I think there is room for a third, it’s a strong subject. but if there is one, I don’t know it maria de madeiros surpasses isabelle huppert insofar as having a prophetic tapeworm is a deeper spiritual burden than being an ex-nun. and the dead weight of 1994 sits too heavily on amateur’s shoulders

hal hartley and guy maddin have very little in common other than that I love them both, except for those sad times when I only like them. but amateur & the saddest music in the world are the best two movies about amnesia & beautiful european self-declared nymphomaniacs

she did like the movie. well, who doesn’t