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One of the things on my list is playing 20 new games all the way through and I am eyeing up some of the new city builders. The one about being oppressed mice and the one about pirates look pretty good.

Wish me luck: ive sent another thing to the doctors detailing my progressive symptoms (I now have numb body parts on top of falling asleep randomly). Very frustrated being half awake when I already feel so behind in life and have so much I want to get on with but trying to make the best of it etc

If I was a dictator I would definitely abuse my power but it would be to do things like banning velour

Not even at the half life point of this anti migraine injection from hell god help me

Inception soundtrack is so good it makes me cry a little bit

Would walking to the shop in my pjs at 10pm to get a snack make me happy

Patting my limited edition copy of Inception that comes in a miniature version of their sleep kit briefcase and has a spinning top in it

Hmm.

I know im tired because im trying to look up "silicone crab hands" because i could not remember the word tongs

My doctors wont help me with my anemia until it gets worse and shows certain markers on tests despite the fact I am obviously suffering from it, so that's cool and good

To be clear we already know the answers to much of this because we do put human beings in those big machines full of magnets and so on and mapped the differences. It's never, ever a genuine question - it's always subterfuge. They know it's real - they're asking if we should eradicate help.

There's a reality where Inception was made by David Fincher and we got an incredible psychological thriller out of it instead of "This is my dead wife, she is named 'Bad' in French"

Thinking about Nolan films and how he consistently makes films about how men aren’t responsible for things they do and the fall out, quite consistently portraying women as the catalyst and failure points.

I think I need to give myself a week or two of concerted rest. I keep forgetting I had this new migraine treatment that made everything hugely worse and beating myself up for struggling “again”.

Making a list with things on it that I think will help me reconnect in general but aren’t all super tough challenges. I think a lot about that apocryphal but completely accurate story of two classes divided into “one class worked on making something perfect and the other worked on quantity”

No one at the end of their last thread wants random strangers telling them to take things more seriously or put more effort in. Especially when their current last idea is “I’m gonna do loads of stuff with no concern for how it goes or if it goes wrong” o.0

I can’t quite explain it but it’s like whereas being depressed normally feels like my brain isn’t doing great, something about this year feels more like my heart has fallen out of me. Pretty sure the dog nearly dying is a big catalyst, obviously. He is being a butthead next to me right now.

Feels weirdly gross to have the therapist I don’t book further sessions with email me to say it’s normal to try different therapists and he can see I’ve already started sessions with a new one -.-

Tried to do a little more painting but the little guy is peeping at me to come and sit somewhere he can curl up next to me

Ok if someone did start a channel or something along the lines I’ve “I’ve hit emotional rock bottom and I’m still going to try to dig up” what kind of things would you find interesting in particular