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Yeeeeeeee will do~

MORE FEM CHAR, OMG PLZZZZZ

I guess the takeaway I want to point out (and haven't yet), is that if they can redefine "good" or "Biblical" or whatever, those of us with ACTUAL real morals should redefine it back. We should reclaim these "definitions" and put real morals into them. We have to take control of that narrative.

Oh, ok!~

Yeah, but the point I'm trying to get at is that MAGA types can excuse everything because they are the ones who claim to define "Biblical" and "good." The definitions serve their own agendas only.

HELLLLLL YEAH! That's so true, and I'm so here for it!

I don't even think it's that. They only believe in "Biblical and heathen people." The dirty secret they NEVER want their followers to figure out is, THEY decide the definition of "Biblical" based on their own hatreds, lusts, and desires. Anything against them is "heathen" even other Christians.

I'll be honest, as someone who grew up in a Christian Nationalist bubble where rape and abuse were everywhere and people made "Biblical" excuses for it all, I've never been surprised. Because if their god says it's ok, then to them it's ok. They're just mad some people don't believe in their god.

(And yes, I know not everyone has called it yet, and it's still really close. Doesn't change the fact that I'm a proud lesbian who's gone fist-deep on some queer pussy.)

I don't blame you! Also, I think when ya'll do, there's a specific plot point that ya'll will like! I believe I handled it really well, because I was careful to avoid a lot of the more awful tropes out there.

These were the people like James Dobson who came on our radios in the car or at home (I heard A TON of radio growing up) talking about how beating kids and abusing them was godly, Biblical, and built character. They warned parents to be secretive in stores and malls because someone might call CPS.

Nah, I don't let myself beat myself up for that too much. I recognize that it was beyond my capacity to understand at the time. I remember hearing that stuff ALL THE TIME at home, on the radio, 700 Club, and the Christian school I went to. There was no avoiding that brainwashing.

(Quite a lot of this is found in my game, "Snow and Haze Hang in the Air" I intentionally turned my experiences with trauma into an SNES-style mystery story because I've been DYING to get it out in some narrative form. Which is why I said I liked the letter writing idea, btw!)

It sucks not to be able to have that from the people you need it most from, huh? It's gutting. It's so stupid too, my mom KNOWS this guy was horrible and abusive. He literally did exorcisms on her to psychologically abuse her, WHILE also cheating on her with women from Sunday school IN FRONT OF HER.

This is EXACTLY how my mom acts. She's even gotten mad and just said that out before. She thinks I'm trying to guilt trip her, when all I want is just acceptance and a "I'm so sorry, I'm here for you." I try to explain that, and she just huffs and scoffs at me.

At the time I was SOOOO indoctrinated to believe that CPS was a "liberal plot to steal Christian kids, CSA them, and make them into government socialist puppets" that I refused to let him get me help. I think about that a lot in the past few years where I've been re-analyzing my childhood trauma.

That sounds about right. On top of that was the Satanic Panic and the hardcore anti-psychology push of the Christian Nationalists, which is what I grew up with. When I was 15 I was diagnosed with ADHD, and after explaining to the psychologist my home situation he was stunned and offered to call CPS.

(Which is kind of ridiculous on her part, given that she put me in fucking danger ALL THE TIME when I was a kid/teen, really right up even until now in a lot of ways. Like she didn't take it seriously when I was raped by my ex-partner in 2021, despite my therapist confirming it to her...)

Yeah that much I DEFINITELY agree with. I don't think my memories will ever be clear enough to charge the person who I now am sure did it, so I don't feel like the specifics really matter to anybody but me anyway. Aside from maybe my mom, who doesn't want to believe she put me in that danger.

The fact that the science seems a bit shaky in this area makes me question my experiences and not feel 100% able to believe/trust them, even though I've had the nagging sense that something happened for... almost 30 years? It doesn't help that my mom refuses to believe it happened, she's in denial.