i think this is probably why bioshock 2 emotionally resonated with me most, pre-transition, even though it's gameplay style was the most heavy and cumbersome of the three. repression really does feel like suffocating in a diving suit at the bottom of the ocean, only escapable through womanhood
lucy rowan holmesit's interesting that becoming a Big Daddy is a key moment of body horror that requires three core components familiar to trans women: 1. a protective uniform. 2. changing how you smell by being doused in pungent pheromones 3. violently ravaging your voice box in a way that feels irreversible