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I have discovered whimsigoth aesthetic and I am so, so scared. Mostly because I am about to make it my whole personality....

I need the Aussie and NZ game dev industry to realise how utterly phenomenal their collaborative and supportive nature is. How utterly singular, and precious it is, and how much it must be protected and preserved. Zero exaggeration, it is absolutely astounding how supportive the scene is.

Listen, what if I went into politics (I won't) and basically promised everything Mamdani promised (I can't), and campaigned off of that (I won't). But what if. WHAT IF.

More games need to just be unrepentantly 'ok', and we need to be ok with games that are just 'ok'. Also games need to stop being treated as money sources for the super rich for fuck's sake.

Anyway. Back to our regularly scheduled existential dread.

It kind of fucks me up that all of the absolutely batshit conspiracy theories about global politics... are starting to be revealed to not be batshit conspiracy theories. Just directed at the dumbest shit. I feel like we were fucking... Palovian trained for this shit.

Holy shit I have so many things to say about this, but whilst this is a funny, sexy, raunchy film, the social commentary in it is so fucking on point and I am watching it happen in real time in my own research. Oh my god I want to talk about this so much. I don't know howwwwwwww....

WICKER | Official UK TrailerYouTube video by Black Bear UKwww.youtube.com

I am beginning to be concerned with the absolute pit of despair I seem to have found myself in because... er. I can't find the ladder anymore...

We have reached full circle. I am now seeing advertisements for live service games that boast 'no sign-in tasks, no pay to win, just play the game'. SO LIKE A NOT LIVE SERVICE GAME? I feel like those people who have nepo baby silicon valley ceo's pitching buses at them...

I don't know where else to put this. Not sure why I need to say it. Maybe to make it real? I'm just having a hard time. Home life, work life, game life, world life. It's a struggle, folks. Trying not to pack it in and just move from paycheck to paycheck these days.

This is actually profoundly true. I have never seen a whole audience not only reject a pushed technology, but deliberately and defiantly do things that cannot be corrupted by that technology. Seeking human-made creations, rejecting AI manufacturing. Turning to analogue. It's incredible.

It's always amusing when people discover we have always let our daughter swear as long as she understands the consequences. And also it produces amazing moments like yesterday: 5yo: "Dad. Why is the bag of chocolates empty?" Dad: "I ate them." 5yo: "Fuck's sake."

... Oh my god Sam Neil died?

Voidra, you have piles of tiny fabric squares on your desk. Voidra quilt. Voidra. Don't sew a ruffle skirt. IT'S A NON VYVANSE DAY.

You know the most awful part of making games? It's that insidious insinuation that if you come up with a game, and it's not the most break out, amazing, makes headlines game, then somehow that's a failure. The kind that guts studios and lays off jobs.

I wish every multimillion dollar company using AI advertisements a very merry bankruptcy.

I have discovered quilting. Not... you know. It's existence. But the activity. I'm in so much trouble.

I pivoted to UE5 after Unity's business choices made me feel uneasy (and I was validated in their choices afterwards). This is making me feel worse, especially with UE6 apparently doing away with blueprints and potentially moving toward vibecoding...

The current state of AAA games is a result of capitalist cowardice and a refusal to treat gamers as mature adults capable of nuance, and has left the audience vulnerable to those who have used video games to drive collective culture into a narrow, hateful, controlled landscape.

I am so fucking over this bullshit line that apparently Israel's militant force is so trained, and so armed, and so deliberate, yet somehow keep 'missing' the correct targets and hitting such specific individuals. Fuck off. Fuck OFF. Fuck off. Fuck off.