I take it back, this semester is gonna kick ass
got a big fuckin study group set up and I'm excited to do good work. holy balls is this a weird feeling
...what a weird week
I think this is the first time in a while where I've felt....calm. not like the kind you get from booze or weed or something, it's like a legit sereneness
combo of therapy and new anti-anxiety meds definitely seems to be working, fucking hell. hope this continues
I think I awoke something dormant last weekend after being exposed to the masterpiece that is Kirby Air Riders
and by that I mean my 8 year old self came out of retirement and kicked ASS at city trial. muscle memory was still there, heheh
holy shit I need to get a Switch 2 when I have money again
how the hell do you get yourself to loosen tf up after years of chronic imposter syndrome
like that gut-driven perfectionist shame that makes you say "not yet" every time you have an idea cuz you're not even remotely confident in your own ability to execute
wish I didn't shut down so hard from it
