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When You Fell From Heaven, by Alyson Greaves

i only had to start doing exercise biking when the rainy season started and also i started estrogen and my metabolism slowed but i kept up the fat burn through that fairly evenly. it's now been a year and a half and i've gone back up 10lbs on purpose for transition and weightlifting (lost 80)

the weightlifting gave me a metabolism boost (and i also got addicted to it lol) and some light morning cardio (like 30-40 minute brisk walks) would make my body go "oh shit we're not getting food anytime soon, it's been almost 16 hours since we last ate and we gotta burn SOMETHING"

YMMV but i had pretty wild success pairing weightlifting with diet and intermittent fasting (Only eat between 9am-5pm)

LMAO WHAT

Will thinks that someone else setting a boundary because they do not want to interact with him is an injury to him, because he isn't the one setting the boundary. He simultaneously thinks nobody should be able to say rude things about him but also nobody should be able to block him. Rapist mentality

you have the reading comprehension of an LLM

That's pretty much it. It's a good, solid movie, and instead of that being "Well yes, it's an expensive Hollywood production full of stars and shot around the world, they aren't going to botch that" it feels like manna because most big Hollywood productions now are Captain Glurpo 14.

“i have an actual personality and you dont” is such a wild pull for this to be anything but dancing across the line and then back again out of fear. girliepop take the estrogen

okay yeah this is the one that fully has me loading the dart gun

i couldn't bargain myself to stay in the closet any longer so i switched to bargaining myself to just a *bit* of femininity instead of accepting what i needed that lasted about a month till my sister (in the know) "good girl'd" me as a joke and it was like getting egg crack double tapped

hell, *I* wanted to stay nonbinary and not claim womanhood because *claiming* womanhood, despite how badly i wanted it, was the scary part. far less stressful to imagine just being a crossdressing queer twink around a very select friend circle while presenting masc around family/coworkers

what do you mean "finally", you've been Cyclops on the big screen for almost 20 years. what were you doing that whole time, denial play???

it's so awesome how trans women warned about and predicted much of what would happen years in advance and the collective response by much of the "community" was and still is isolating them or scolding them for their tone. nobody ever learns anything they just jump to save their own backs

god damn it’s still so fucking weird how much i look like her now

one year and one month after coming out to my parents i wore a dress in front of them for the first time. Mom didn’t bat an eye and Dad could barely look at me, lol. second pic was taken by Mom. just because she wanted to.

and they say men dont know how to give compliments

the entire world wants us to *not* realize we are trans, to *not* let ourselves admit it when we start to suspect in the back of our mind, to *not* have the guts to come out and say so when we finally accept it. that is an enormous weight to struggle against alone. failing to lift it isn't shameful.

it's okay to think "i wish i had figured it out sooner", that pain is real and needs tending, but try not to let it be "i *should* have figured it out sooner" because it is so easy for that to curdle into self-hatred and loathing. i almost fell into that despair trap last year.

i am going to be 34 in a couple of months. i was 32 when i finally broke down and accepted i was trans, after a decade of subconsciously and then actively repressing it. i'll never be able to backfill the hole that repression left in my life, but it doesn't get to eat any more years.