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saw a second person and they had a similar thing where they said its unlikely to be anything concerning ;w;; they referred me to a specialist on wednesday and i will have an ultrasound taken still but im like okayyy mokachan will probably be Alright.. snif…

thanks for 1k+ plays yay!

i wish i could play as eustace winner in unbeatable

went to urgent care because i mentally could not wait until tomorrow's appointment and they Did feel a lump in my neck but they said "cancer is low on their list" of what they think it is... ordered an ultrasound &... we'll see... ;;w;;; still have my ENT appointment tomorrow but im a little calmer

i cant sleep😔

really stressed about an appointment on thursday agh agh agh. Hopefully its nothing but im scared I have some version of throat cancer and its making it impossible for me to focus on or do anything… its really miserable 🫠 i want to make cool things but im just sad and scared

impulsively streaming gmtk games after not pressing go live for months yay twitch.tv/mokadevs

okay

despite dropping like 5 billion eustace winner name drops in my latest video not a single person has commented on it and im choosing to believe that this is because he is just accepted as part of every day ordinary life and not because people dont know who he IS....

very touching that people are saying playing kill-all go helped teach them weiqi because lowkey making this game forced me to learn how to play weiqi really really fast

health stress really drains any and all enjoyment from things sighs

⚪️KILL-ALL GO! ⚫️ Have you ever played Go (or Weiqi, or Baduk, or whatever you want to call it)? Cool! Have you ever played it with your life on the line? No better time to start than now! #indiedev Made by @cinnadev.bsky.social & I for #GMTKJam !! 👇Play on itch! 👇

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i wouldn’t consider myself a “perfectionist”, at least not anymore, but i do have the mentality that “i want to make things that are good” & honestly that feeling gets suffocating haha. perfection is impossible but “making it not bad” feels so within reach that its easy to explode from frustration

people who have health anxiety how do yall deal with it 😔 genuinely gets more and more debilitating for me guh...