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This is how we live on earth, a flock of sparrows. The darkness, a magician, finds quarters behind our ears. We don’t know what life is, who makes it, the reality is thick with longing. We put it up to our lips and drink. ~ Ilya Kaminsky, ‘Dancing in Odessa’ (2004) #Painting by Miyake Wakō.

It is true, if you’re benefitting from Disabled Adult Child benefits, you will lose them if you get married and your spouse has income. I guess the government just assumes they’ll become your caretaker, which adds all sorts of weird dynamics to what is presumably a romantic relationship.

i can't be allowed in the same room with toum/trader joe's garlic spread-dip, because i cannot control myself around it.

went to a little papermaking workshop at the library (saw two or three other queer people, too) for my birthday and had some very delicious ramen afterwards.

Tfw mothra gave you power of attorney

i just wanted to let you know that the link is broken (it's missing the slash between app and the id number), but it's easy enough to search the name and i've shared it with my partner, who loves fiber arts!

“Cigalia” perfume bottle for Rogers & Gallet, Paris. René Lalique, 1910.

i trust the owl with the bite strength of god to keep me safe by himself

is there an actual reason why dialogue in movies is at 0.5% volume and the sound effects and music are at 5000% volume? i have an ungodly migraine from the latter, and barely heard a single word the characters said.

i was so obsessed with it when i was a kid. partner and i were just talking about it the other day and about how we'd like to rewatch it since it's been since the early 90s that either of us have seen it.

i also signed us up for a little papermaking class on my birthday because i'd like to go to more of the free art events at the library, and i managed to make myself talk out loud twice to strangers in a roleplay before i got too anxious.

i'll say three things for the new meds, despite the headache: 1. i have kept the dishes done 2. i've been drinking tea every day again (tea has been a hobby for 23 years but has been neglected for a while) 3. i took pictures outside the other day for the first time in years.

sucks that you can go to therapy, do the work, take the pills, touch grass, practice a hobby, pet a cat, etc, and still spend an entire day so miserable that you can't get out of bed. there's only so much mental scaffolding i can build out of toothpicks as a trans person in this godforsaken country.

people seem very upset that the vampires are violent and cruel instead of being cozy coffee shop types who adopt shelter dogs and volunteer with underprivileged children.

attempting my first sourdough starter from scratch

Timely, hopeful & crucial article from @annamerlan.bsky.social. Here’s a key excerpt to carry in your heart this weekend & beyond.

i wish more people had the capacity to recognise and honour real art, real music, real human effort, etc, even when it is not to their specific taste. the song i'm listening to is not my thing, but everyone who made it worked very hard on it and that is easy to see for me and respect.

children's movies that talked about grief and loss were the only way i could try to understand my own feelings about my grandfather's sudden death when i was seven because my family wouldn't talk about it, nor let me talk about it or go to the funeral. films like these are VITALLY IMPORTANT.

the drivers metaphor is a pretty good one. my brain felt like the sound had been broken since the puberty update and instead of music, all i could hear was the buzzing whine of feedback. it improved so fast after i started hrt.

early on in my transition before there were any noticable changes from HRT, i explained to one of my gamer friends that being on estrogen felt like getting the right drivers installed on a gaming PC. it actually made him understand super well and he said it was a good metaphor