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Ive never been this raw before. I am paralyzed with anxiety, between this, my mom's health, my wife leaving, and, you know, the world, micro and macro. It's like I've discovered something deeper than a panic attack - I can keep moving around, I just feel like I am dying. It fucking blows.

Lead rated vacs are radically more expensive. Lead removal companies wont do a tiny bathroom in an apartment. They also wont rent me a vac rated to do it, bc I dont have certification in knowing how to safely remove lead. All while, like, how fast am I being poisoned, do we think?

Yesterday I finally found a shopvac with Hepa filters that I could afford, talked it over at Home Depot, planned to just clean the bathroom of the debris that's in there, right now, for my peace of mind...and it turns out its hepa rated *but not for lead*. And no one at HD knew anything about it.

It's also literally just barely what I need to live, and most, like, 1800 dollar studios want you to be making $70,000 before they will rent to you, now. I do not make that. So I am stuck. In this house with lead dust.

She would fix it, and then kick me out, or kick me out because she needs to fix it, and leave me homeless. I cannot rent a new place, bc I am caretaking for my mom, and while I can pay rent confidently, my income stream is weird, and difficult to show someone on paper.

I asked my landlord if the walls were leaded before I started anything, and in 15 years, it is the only email she did not respond to. I believe that answered my question. I know I could turn to the state to get her to fix it - but I would lose my apartment, as I am on a 2 month rolling agreement.

Y'all, this bathroom is f-ing killing me. Maybe literally. I have to refinish this bathroom bc I cannot get someone to live here with if I dont. Two layers down, a great deal of which was exposed, the paint is leaded, or at least has lead dust on it.

Though, as I say it, I just mean 'websites that dont have ads, like this one' - not that this one ran afoul of extensions, to my knowledge.

To date, that's fixed pretty much everything. Though, I have had to abandon certain ad blockers over time, bc of how they interact with websites that dont even have ads, like this one.

Hmm, well, I dont know much about them - and given how you operate that account, you probably know more than me - but I dont have automatic updates on anything, bc I dont trust anything, so when an interface I have is completely borked, I usually try updating firefox, which then updates extensions

Worth noting, I use this site via a desktop browser, if you use the phone app, that might be a big difference.

This was just the last thing in the chamber, Im not suggesting you are coping.

I can see you! And I can see images.

I'll offer, C's fans, if you want a bit of dopamine, checking out Philly's radio stations, or some of their content creators, and watching people rave about JB's game, and celebrate him being on the team, and *defend* him? Like, on air? It's pretty heady. A reminder how dark our media pool is.

And I've only encountered one person who, like, insisted that, actually, trading JB for the remains of Paul George was a good thing - for the most part, folks are upset, sometimes very upset still, and also, like good, god-fearing New Englanders, they hate the Sixers like the English.

Like, maybe 17 yrs old! The kids are alright. Also, I've been wearing this thing for a couple weeks and no one had really said anything...then Lebron joined the Sixers, and now, like, people are staring, and want to talk about my hat. It's wild.

Young Person At Ice Cream Stand: *pointing at my Sixers hat* "That's a very controversial hat, right now." Me: "They broke my heart." YPAICS: "They broke my heart, too." Me: "I dont think I can watch them this season, so I figure I'll just follow JB, watch him." YPAICS: "Good for you."

Imagine we had bars and parks and enough time and money to see people outside work.

I'd only amend - what GOOGLE did to Jonathan Gavalas. The app has a name, sure, but Google did this. The corporation producing the murder app did this.