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Been feeling miserable and tired and depressed for four days. I hate feeling lost and unable to do anything about it, while constantly living in the life I wish I had going on in my head. Just daydreaming constantly. It sucks because it doesn't feel like any of those dreams will ever come true.

I wish I can go to the Oddities & Curiosities Expo in Buffalo, but 8 hours is too far for me by train, and I can't drive at the moment (no driver's license yet). Also it's happening today and tomorrow so I can't make it either way. It looks so cool and sounds right up my alley.

Not really sure why I’m so passionate about the concept of adult/mature Xenofiction. Actually, I think I know why. It deserves to be complex and explorative of things most general XF avoid because it might be “too weird” or “worse”. I’m sick of the “XF is for kids” mentality.

Agreed. I write adult XF and I constantly worry of people taking my dark themes and general mature content the wrong way because morons don't know the difference between fiction and reality. I hate that MG fiction dominates XF. The '80s used to have mature XF but now it's all sanitized. mediocrity.

Not sure if I ever shared these, but here is some of my alt "Alpha and Omega" fanart I did awhile back. It's loosely based its og darker premise, and I was planning another set but I got burnt out. I might return to it again someday. #wolf #wolves #alphandomega #xenofiction

Wait you can now upload more than four images??? Nice!

After writing this latest scene, it will be VERY difficult to top Vulkan after his defeat. He is such a disgusting revolting perverted freak. I hate him but I also love him. He is SO much fun to write for how unrepentant he is in his depravity. My worst villain ever (in a good way). #xenofiction

Trying to figure out how to build up my Bluesky following. Generally I'm pretty bad about doing it. I've only gotten lucky.

I love the feeling of finishing a scene. Though it is for volume 3 which is ways away, it's still progress. Now I need to resume volume 1. Roughly 60% done with the first draft.

Writing love scenes is tough balance. The whole time you wonder if you’re being too detailed or too vague or in between, and not sure what to do about it or worry of them being taken the wrong way x_X I try to make the characters’ emotions the central focus but I want to describe the passion too.

I said it once but I'll repeat; it never hurts to draw for yourself.

Was brainstorming earlier this morinng of (around 5am or something) writing an AsmodeixSverkai scene but not sure where I'd put it or even include it or if there is any reason for it aside from wanting to write about gay dogs. 🤷

“Are you in love with her?” Inaudibly Vernaya gasped. Vulkan had found his mark; Asmodei’s features twisted with fury. This stirred a semblance of light piercing through its depths, but the answer it would not accept, nor could confront... --- After ages, I finally composed a new sequence.

Wild story behind this guy! Ultimately someone privately commissioned this but the plushmaker had no knowledge and everything was forgiven and Karla helped get it for me! I’m so amazed it even happened! The fact someone loved this design enough to commission it meant I’m doing something right ❤️

I wish Disney would do more talking animal films again. I'm so tired of their Princess films. While I get it's their classical formula, it's gotten so old at this point. Granted, this is Modern Disney, so not shocked. #xenofiction #disney #thefoxandthehound #bambi #thelionking #ladyanthetramp

One of the main reason I enjoy reading and writing Xenofiction. To get into the mind of another creature just hits differently. With exceptions like the Classics of Dickens and Dostoevsky, and modern titles like Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell, I don’t really care for human based stories.

FINALLY drew Krasotka after 5000 years. Long overdue. I've never really drawn her much at all, whether in my old semi-realistic style or my recent cartoon style. I think I'll start giving other characters attention going forward. Geroi is neglected too, and Charodei needs some more art.

Oh man I recall how often I would go to my library's computer lab to just browse for Moro fanart. My parents had installed a parental control software on our home computers and DevART was among those blocked. I'm amazed I never encountered any NSFW. Thank god!

Finally a character who is not Vernaya! At last I’m giving Krasotka a chance. Very first time as well in this current style. I need to draw her with her mate Geroi. Of course I ADORE Vernaya and Sverkai, but they need a bit of a break for a bit. The other characters should have their moments.