What I have done or thought about sexually has nothing to do with whether or not I am gay. If anything, I am so comfortable as a heterosexual cisgender man, that I’m willing to do things that would likely threaten a more insecure man’s fragile masculinity.
Every comedian has at some point thought about killing a person, or committing a terrorist attack, as a shortcut to fame.
But we don't. Because that's the easy way. We saddle up, and we forge our own path with the power of our ideas.