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Genuinely, the several months break away from social media & just Projects™️was I think really needed, & I'm really appreciating it now. I'm still easing my way back into things, but I can say that I've been doing more brainstorming in the past few days than I have in months. And that's great (1/?)

There are, in fact, some days where you just need to zone out in bed and eat a whole block of cheese.

So I try to do my cardio every morning at 11. And I need you to know that every morning at 11, my cat Tabby decides -- while I'm working out -- that she will she on the back of my chair. My chair that is actively shaking, because my body is moving. And she *clings* to it. Willingly. Every morning.

I like the way the sunlight comes into my room in the early morning. Never mind the mess ✨🌅 Had to borrow spoons from today for chores yesterday, so probably won’t get up to much in terms of chores or TTRPG plans/work.

Learned a new word today, “garrulous”, so that’s fun. Love learning a new word. But now it’s 10:40 PM and I’m exhausted so I think I’m gonna pass out soon.

✅ Cycle on elliptical ⬜️ Dumbbells ✅ Make bed ✅ Shower ✅ Skincare ✅ Clean desk ⬜️ Vacuum room ⬜️ Cartograph ⬜️ Brainstorming ✅ Do dishes ✅ Clean out fridge ✅ Clean cat boxes ✅ Take out recycling Tacked on some extra; still didn’t get to it all. Think I had to borrow spoons from tomorrow for today 😵‍💫

Someone tell me why showering takes so many damn spoons. Either I wait til the end of the day, when I have used up most of my spoons already or I shower to start with, but then I'm basically bricked from doing anything else for the rest of the day because showering took so many spoons I hate it.

Suddenly this year, my face is breaking out in really bad acne (never been a problem before, not even as a teenager), and any time I put on any of my make up, my eyes water and my nose runs. Thinking it's time that I need to A) maybe see a dermatologist, and B) switch to hypoallergenic make up 1/2

Let’s see if I can use social media to hold myself accountable today ✨ To do: ⬜️ Cycle on elliptical ⬜️ Dumbbells ⬜️ Make bed ⬜️ Shower ⬜️ Skincare ⬜️ Clean desk ⬜️ Vacuum room ⬜️ Cartograph ⬜️ Brainstorming ⬜️ Do dishes Don’t need to finish it all, but… at least *some* of it. I’m pre-stressed already 😓

Beginning the process for the Soloverse with Cartograph, which has been a very fun mapmaking solo TTRPG so far 🥰 I’ve been meaning to play for ages, but I’m kicking myself into gear. Did about an hour of play today, I’ll jump back in later. Map is slowly taking shape. Very slowly 😅

Genuinely, I've rewatched this like... 3 or 4 times now? Not all at once, mind you. Sometimes I just wanna slap it on in the background, 'cause I find it really interesting to listen to from time to time. The entire archetype of 'the Good Stepsister' is so interesting. youtu.be/anph83w3WWo?...

The Good Stepsister: How 2000s Pop Culture Reimagined a Fairytale VillainYouTube video by Babbity Kateyoutu.be

To the little (BIG) spider who has been noodling around outside my bedroom window for the past 45 minutes as it has been storming outside: Hey buddy. I hope you can find some shelter there. Really. But let's just remember: you stay out THERE. And I stay in HERE. And ne'er shall the paths cross. Yes?

Lowkey, I keep thinking about the solo TTRPGs that I have, and I keep thinking about starting something called the Soloverse — where I would use worldbuilding solo games to continually build upon & flesh out my setting. And then I’d play solo journaling games that were all set *in* that setting.

The pitiful list of things I've managed today: ✅4.56 miles on my elliptical for 30 minutes ✅Had a cup of coffee ✅Took a nap This is literally it. It's 5 PM and today has been an executive dysfunction disaster. Jfc, I hope tomorrow is better 😔

I am so close to just quitting today and crawling back into bed. Endless frustration since like 7:30 AM, and now it's 1 PM, there's no signs of improvement yet, and I'm just getting increasingly agitated. This probably is not helped by the fact that I fell asleep last night before I took my meds.

Today feels like a little bit of a struggle, honestly... namely because I can't seem to wrestle my brain into cooperating. I'm somehow under stimulated to the point of irritability, but simultaneously can't seem to get the executive function functioning enough to pick a task (or hobby!) and do it.